Dréa's Plans for Her Life! Where will she be in a year or two? :o

All my life I've always been older in my heart and mind than I am in years, and when I was a pre-teen I really wanted to be older. I wanted to grow up! Get a job! Start saving money for a nice house someday! Start a great relationship with a great guy! And here I am, at the threshold of adulthood, and it's like all these things that were "supposed" to happen, haven't. Do I have the foundations for some of these things? Maybe. Do I still want these things? Of course. But at the same time, now that I'm older I almost want my childhood back, I feel like maybe I didn't enjoy it to the fullest. Of course, I couldn't really help that in many ways, not all of my childhood was that enjoyable. But I was so eager to grow up, that I didn't appreciate what I had. I'm sure this happens to many people. 


Now I still want to "grow up" but I'm wary about doing so. I don't even have the financial stability to grow up. Basically, I can't do all that much with my life at present. I don't even have my drivers license, much less a car to drive. I don't really like driving, and I certainly do not want to drive in Chicago busy streets and traffic. >_< Then there's choosing a college. Woo yay fun! -___- Here are the reasons why I'm dreading college; Money. Of course. Unless I eat nothing but breadcrumbs and wear the same outift for 2-4 years, I can't afford it. Who can afford it these days? I DO NOT want any student loans to deal with. I want to be as debt free as possible, especially when I get married and start a family. Which is a whoooole other topic that's not going to be spoken of today. *back to college topic* Ah and of course, the lovely process of choosing a major. The average person changes their major 6 times or something like that. 6 times! And I can see why. I'm probably gonna go with a major in Performing Arts and a minor in creative writing. Or I may choose the other way around. Only time will tell. Maybe I'll end up majoring in some weird bizarre thing I've never even heard of yet. And that's the part that drives me crazy about it all, I don't want to have to change my mind. I don't want to waste anymore of my life than I already have. Like the time I'm wasting typing this. X) 


My point is, I feel like I don't have anymore time to spare, like I'm getting old. I know I'm not, and I can just hear all you people who've lived longer than I have saying; "Don't worry about it! You're so young! You have plenty of time!" NO LADY I DON'T! It sure doesn't feel like it. The Five For Fighting song "100 Years" comes to my mind. I remember singing that song when I was 11 years old and 15 seemed so far away. Then when I was 15 I was like; "Hey I'm 15 now! It's like he's singing those parts to me now." I felt so cool, like 15 was "all that". Well guess what? 15 already said bye-bye quite a while ago. And what progress have I made since then? I guess I've made a good bit, but not what I was hoping I would have. So what am I trying to say by all this? Well, this just started out as a ramble and I didn't actually have plans as to where it would go. But I guess what I'm trying to say is that sometimes we need to stop expecting things to happen within OUR time frames and just let God's plans for our lives unfold. We need to appreciate what we have while we have it. I seriously need to take my own advice. Do I still have dreams bigger than planet earth? Yes. Will I try and let God write my life story and lead me down the right path? Yes!


 Lord, help me to trust You and know that You will take care of me and those I love. Help me to never forget that money doesn't matter, clothes don't matter, cars and houses don't make people Saints, and therefore, don't matter either. You will give us what we need, when we need it. And most of all, help me to remember that You'll give me the strength to do what I need to do in a certain aspect of my life. Mary, our dearest Blessed Mother, pray for us now, and at the hour of our death. Amen.

Well, I think that's it for this post, sorry it was a bit lengthy, hope my rambling didn't bore you too much. :] 

Much love, 

Drea. ♥

"A single dream is more powerful than a thousand realities." -J.R.R. Tolkien

A Few Thoughts on the Name of my Blog

Ok, so if you know me well, you know that I talk to myself. Who doesn't? Come on, admit it, you do too. I'm not ashamed to admit that I've been talking to myself all my life. No I'm not crazy, and no I don't have an imaginary friend either, I just talk to myself. Just because I like to. Well for one thing, I want to be an actress, so oftentimes I'm randomly saying movie lines or imitating characters. Most of the time I'm just thinking out loud, talking or (rarely) shouting or crying about my life and what happens in it. And of course sometimes there's singing thrown in there in the midst of my talking. I consider this a healthy habit of mine, because it allows me to get my thoughts out without pestering and driving away the few friends I have. They have enough of my talking, so I just let the rest out on myself. I saw a question on Yahoo Answers from a Mom who had an 11 year old daughter who talked to herself. She basically was asking what was wrong with her daughter. People started telling her to take her daughter to a psychologist or doctor and one person said something like; "She may have a learning disability like Asperger's or something." Ha! I must have a serious case of Asperger's! More than likely the girl simply wanted to get her thoughts out or may want to be an actress or something. Maybe it sounds silly to some people, but there is nothing wrong with talking to yourself occasionally! Of course, I don't talk to myself in front of other people, because it's like I have no reason to, that would just be a little silly! Well anyway, in typing this I'm talking to myself because no one is even reading my blog yet! But hopefully that will change soon, and maybe by then I'll have something better to write about. :) On another note, the little dolls you see above on my banner are DanDan and Dréa. ;) I put them together on the Lunaii dollmaker. They are not my artwork, I simply put them together. Here is the link to the Lunaii Dollmaker. Try it out sometime if you like, I love putting dolls together that look like my friends and family. :)

Much love,
Dréa ♥
"A single dream is more powerful than a thousand realities." -J.R.R. Tolkien